Sunday, December 26, 2010

christmas was amazing! we spread out the opening of presents all day so dutch wouldn't lose interest with the ripping of paper and not want to open presents. in between presents we ate, cooked, took naps, watched veggietales, cuddled, played with new toys, read books, and took lots of pictures. my living room still resembles a disaster site, and i don't even want to think about the kitchen.

does this mean that i'm officially a grown up now? with my living room scattered with bits of wrapping paper and new toys and my kitchen counters still covered in flour and powdered sugar. not caring one bit about the mess. taking the time to push the new buttons on toys and cuddle with a book and stuffed animal while my little drifts in and out of sleep.

The Poet and i made our own traditions. we lounged in pjs and ate peanut butter coffee cake. we napped as a family and it's the first time that i really feel like this was 'our' christmas. before Dutch we had our little things that we did, but this year it was different. we're a little family and we decide what we do, who we share our day with, what movies we watch. we make christmas. we make it special and our traditions will last.

maybe it's the fact that i'm now the one who makes traditions that makes me feel grown up. when dutch is married and having his first christmas with his little family, our traditions are the ones that will help shape the ones he makes. just like traditions that The Poet and i have with our family color the traditions we started this year. maybe it's that i have this little boy, so full of smiles and giggles, that i'm responsible for that makes me feel grown.

whatever it is, i think i kind of like it. for years, i have never felt grown up. i'm 28 years old and just now starting to feel like an adult in most everything i do. i like where i am. who i am. i love the man i married and life i helped create.

life is good.

i hope your new year is full of living and loving!

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